Fuck you all. I really meant it. Fuck you all with your "you should be optimistic" "c'mon is new year's eve you should be happy!" "forget your problems!"

NO, SHITBRAINS, THAT WONT SOLVE ANYTHING.

Today was the 3rd day my fiancee can't be ok just because his family sucks and SCREW EVERY FUCKING MOMENT HE IS OK, AND TURN HIM INTO A DEPRESSED GUY WHO WANTS TO DIE, AND I CAN'T DO SHIT TO SOLVE THAT.

Today I didn't talk too much, because I have no rent in my cellphone.

Today, like almost every fucking day I fight with my mom and grandma. Just because I don't wanna dress and spend tonight 1, with my closest family, 2, with people I really don't care about, and 3 pretending i'm happy, i'm the perfect grown girl who loves everyone and smiles and loves her family and loves this world and think everything's perfect.

Today I fight with my fiancee about 10 minutes ago and I feel like shit.

Today is the 3rd day I don't take a shower and the 7th I don't wash my hair.

TODAY I WANNA SPEND THE NEXT HOURS SLEEPING, SURFING IN INTERNET OR GETTING DRUNK   A L O N E  WITH SCOTCH, FORGETTING HOW FUCKED UP THIS DAY WAS

PEACE